Let’s start this new year old with a little story shall we?
Between the October of 2010 and October 2011 I managed to go from 203lbs to 150lbs.
For the first time in far too long I was so happy with my appearance.
I fit in size 10 clothing and hadn’t been happier in a very long time! I’d been 200-203 since I’d had Lisi back in May of 2006. So it was a big thing to finally get down to a happier weight.
In roughly April 2012 I started Abilify to help my usual Celexa for my depression. Abilify caused me to be constantly hungry to the point that if I didn’t eat, and lots, I was physically ill and would throw up. But I was so desperate for it to work and to feel better emotionally that I kept going. It had to help right? Plus my doctor had said that it was a medication that didn’t cause weight gain, like I’d specifically asked for. Nothing that would make me overly hungry.
She lied.
By the time I reached the end of 2012 I was 224lbs. The heaviest I’ve ever been in my entire life, and I hated myself to no end. I didn’t want to go outside, and I tried not eating as much but the Abilify made that a big mistake. It was February of 2013 that I finally decided I’d had enough of the Abilify and I quit it. I needed it to just go away and stop making being healthy damn near impossible.
It was then that I got pregnant with Risi.
Thankfully, without the Abilify and by being careful (not starving myself, but not just eating whatever and all the damned time) I was “only” 235 by the time Risi was born November 5th 2013.
I was 214 quickly enough, but allowed myself to eat whatever for the Holidays as one ‘final huzzah!’ and then gained back another 3lbs. Well, what do you expect when you eat half a pan of Baklava and generally don’t care? Honestly I am lucky it was so little all things considered.
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To this point, my biggest challenge of the new year is to get back down to that 150lbs I so loved being. I will get to wear those size 10’s and 12’s I still have hiding in my closet in hopes that I can do this.
I’m not starting right away of course. January 6th 2014 though? It’s on! This isn’t merely a ‘New year resolution’ this is a commitment, a challenge for me to be better.
I’m also going to challenge myself to do the following things again:
- Make the kids clothes
- Do more nail art
- Draw
- Paint
- Sing
- Clean
- Cook
- Sleep
- Love
- Smile
- Laugh
- and last but not least – RELAX!
What are your challenges for yourself for the new year?
Things you will give all your power not to give up on? I’d love to know what things you all plan on trying to bring forth this year.
Cynd says
Congratulations on the birth of your little one! And best of luck with your resolutions! My big resolution is similar. I’m not looking so much to lose weight, but to live an all around healthier and more active lifestyle.
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Rachel Ralston says
Way To Go! You’re look great and I am proud of you for taking the steps to living a better life with depression. As a person with bipolar I understand it can be hard to talk to doctors sometimes but only you know what’s right for your body. Keep positive and you will be successful throughout all your challenges. Here’s to a happy new year!!
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GossipMoms (@GossipMoms) says
Your blue hair is cool! i dont have any challenges, but yours look fun! I hope you have fun with your weight loss this year
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Ask Dr. Renee says
Much success to you and if I can help you with your journey as I continue mine please let me know … http://www.askdrrenee.info/2013/11/23/vlogs/
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Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell says
Sounds like you’re going to be putting yourself first in many ways this year, not just health. You can do it! I personally think you’re smart to not start January 1st. I think that darn day sets people up for failure because if you have one off day, you feel like the whole year is ruined.
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G.s. Marjara says
When you have a new year resolution, you have to make it. This one is a common one most of us make it every year then leave it in first month it self. Good luck to you.
LaDonna says
Congratulations on your new addition. How exciting for you. I had to take a medication that made me really sick if i didn’t eat, and eat a lot too. I was extremely worried about putting on the weight. I made it a point to keep good health things in the house so that when the time came, I could grab those health items and take care of the immediate need. It seemed to work. And now I seem to be suck on some of those habits I picked up along the way. Good luck with your resolution!
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Becky Lyons Borgia says
Your baby is so adorable! Good luck with your goals!
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Lisa Trudell says
What a great set of resolutions. We should all look to live life and look out for ourselves. Congrats on your newest addition.
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Sara-Jayne says
Congratulations on your little one’s birth! I love your resolutions. Mine is to be more organised!
Rita Von says
You can do it girl! We all bounce around with our weight, it’s obnoxious. I’m still trying to get myself out of the 188 – 190 range I’ve been sitting at for months, but it’s so much easier said than done. I hope 2014 brings you lots of success, I’ll be following along here and cheering you on!
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Tara (Mom Blogger) says
Congrats on the weight loss! I have a bit I need to drop myself when my little one is born. Weight loss is hard, but once you see you can do it, maintaining it is much easier!
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aoikasan says
Well I lost the weight once, I am sure I can do it again. Right now I’m the biggest I’ve ever been. 😉
Lexie Lane says
I think it definitely helps to write your goals down. This is a good list and I wish I could make clothes but I’m really not that talented. Good luck! I’d love to know how it turns out this year for you.
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jenny at dapperhouse says
I have heard SO MANY people talk about being hungry on anti-depressants. Then you feel depressed about your weight and eating struggles and what good are the meds? It is a hard thing to balance but you have such a great plan and good outlook that I have complete faith in you! I hope that you blog about doing the things on your list!
Pamela @ Still Dating My Spouse says
Don’t be so hard on yourself…You brought a life into the world. Take each challenge day by day! Get you a S.M.A.R.T. plan to lose the weight & stick with it but don’t be hard on yourself if you should forget or slip up! You can do it I believe you can.
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Jenn says
Good for you!! You look great and should be proud of how far you go! My challenges this year is to loose weight (i’m the heaviest I’ve ever been!) and curve my sugar addiction! Its going to be hard but I’m hoping to make a lifestyle change not a diet this time! I’m going to add in working out if I can get motivated!
aoikasan says
I looked great but I am too the heaviest I’ve ever been. You’re right it’s more of a lifestyle change than a diet. My goal isn’t to get down as small as possible. Just to my happy weight of 150!
I’m going to practice moderation, not cutting out anything completely. Just, one serving, more so of things that are treats! Moderation is key. 🙂
Dina says
Very great goals! I want to try to be more patient as the year goes on. I also have a lot of photography goals I hope to accomplish this year.
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aoikasan says
I need to work on my patience too. Best of luck with your goals!
Wood Arts Universe says
Congrats on your little one..
My body has normalized to a no meat diet. Took 5 days. Days 2 and 3 we’re rough as I made a significant protein shift to cottage cheese, tofu, my system wasn’t so happy.
Feeling great, lost a few pounds already, and am starting to normalize on this diet. I have no idea how long I’ll do it. Hoping I’ll lose some weight without changing my exercise routine of only walking 30min a day
aoikasan says
5 days to normalize isn’t too bad at all! I was vegetarian for about 6 months many years ago, I couldn’t keep it up as I really started craving chicken and shrimp again. They’re my two favorite meats!
Liisi Carr says
Congrats on the weight control, and your sweet little baby. You actually have some of the same goals as myself blog wise. I need to do more nail art, and more art and crafts, more DIY. I want to post more about home schooling my kids but its a little hard coming up with good content. Maybe I should just start writing…
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aoikasan says
I want to also try and teach my oldest two how to use the sewing machine I gave the oldest! Best of luck with your nail art and general arts and crafts! 😀
Nicki says
A little bit everyday will go along way – you can achieve anything if you put your mind to it. Good luck!
Jennifer Brown says
Love the list, I enjoyed reading it. For 2014 I would add peace to my list. I live in Colorado and in the past lived with fires and flood, I ready to be peaceful again.
Joanna Sormunen says
Hope you have a terrific 2014 and achieve all your goals!
I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions, instread I chose a word to focus my year. It is, Joyful.
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Veronica Spriggs says
Congrats on the birth of your precious little one and best of luck shedding those extra pounds. my new years resolutions include shedding those final pounds to get to goal. i’ll be cheering you on!
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Fabulous Perks says
Congratulations on the weight lost. I don’t do New Years resolutions but I would like to live a healthier life this year.
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aoikasan says
I lost weight awhile ago and then gained it back… 🙁
Mommy Pehpot says
you can do it!
my challenge for this year is to lose at least 10lbs before my birthday.. less than a month! Let’s do this together!
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Dhemz Apdian Dias says
just embrace yourself! congratulations on your new bundle of joy….such a cutie! good luck!
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Pauline C. says
If you did it before you could do it again! Good luck on your new goals. I’m trying to eat healthier foods too, I just don’t care about my weight anymore. Hehe 🙂
Ray says
Just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your posts. Dont have much to add, cheers!