It’s hard to believe that a month ago, well okay a month and two days ago, Risi was born?! Where does the time go?
One month old exactly, Kimi (creamy) as decided that Risi needed him to nap with her while she was chilling in her bouncy/vibrating seat.
I think a part of not understanding how time can fly comes from the fact that you just are so darn exhausted with a little baby you no longer have any grasp on the passage of time.
I never imagined that having another baby would be difficult. I mean, I made it through four babies without near as much trouble as I am having this time. So what gives?!
Then it strikes me, while I may have done this newborn/little baby thing four times before. I’ve never had to do it in the following circumstances:
- With four kids in school, a total of two different schools even. In fact, Lisi was 3 1/2 months old by the time Kat started school. We lived next door to the school so Kat just walked with other kids, and at 3 1/2 months old Lisi was pretty good at her nighttime sleeping stuff. There wasn’t any waking up at 5AM to get anyone to work, and again at 6:50am to get people ready and out the door for school.
- With a child who needed multiple out of state appointments for health reasons. This past month alone I’ve had three such appointments with Kat.
- High blood pressure the last month of pregnancy, and a hard labor that was induced. Including the worst panic attack I’ve ever experienced that left me with ‘aftershock’ panic attacks that still show up at times.
- Anemia that doesn’t seem to want to go away fast enough.
- Massive knots in my right shoulder and neck that create blinding pain in my head so bad that I have moments where I am too weak to hold my own head up.
- Major holidays. Risi was born right after Halloween, which I suffered through with high blood pressure and the stress of four Halloween costumes that needed creating. She was 23 days old on Thanksgiving. Holidays for me are exhausting and a bit stressful as is, throwing a newborn in the mix is something I’ve never really experienced.
- Having to drive people various places. I didn’t get my license until Jan 2010, so I wasn’t the driver to anyplace. 😛
- Worrying too much about my much older children bonding with a little baby… Kat was 5 when Lisi was born, Sisi was 2, Var wasn’t even 1 yet. They all bonded with the ‘new baby’ that was Lisi pretty darn easily. Right now though, Kat has been a little nervous about Risi due to her small size (Kat is taller than me, and feels nervous around babies.) Sisi has never been sure she wants babies, so she’s hesitant. Var is super excited but at the same time with how he likes to roughhouse I worry, and Lisi… well.. appears to want to take over as mom sometimes. LOL
Lisi with “her” baby.
I’m not trying to whine, so please don’t take it that way, I’m just getting my thoughts out in writing so when I am feeling overwhelmed and like I have no idea what I am doing or why… I can come back to this and go. “Well, no wonder it’s a bit hard, the entire thing is actually new to me!!”
The kids are adjusting pretty darn well to Risi. Even Var with his ODD (oppositional defiance disorder) has started to adjust pretty well to the changes around home, which is good.. he and I tend to have a hard time adjusting to changes.
Lisi is still positively in love with being a big sister. She’s yet to resent Risi in any way which to me is rather surprising. She’s been the youngest child for 7 1/2 years and losing that place can be really darn hard for some kids. Not Lisi though, she’s never actually LIKED being the youngest child. She was in love with the idea of having a baby sister, and now that she’s been born, she really does love to step up and do whatever she can for Risi.
It’s been a tiring, long… and yet somehow insanely short month. It’s hard to believe that she’s been out in the world for as long as she has, but at the same time as short as she has.
I look forward to her growing up and seeing what kind of person she is… and of course her finally learning the difference between day and night so we get some good sleep. These 2-3 hours of awake time no matter how dark and how quiet it is are a killer.
Happy 1 month Risi! I love you!
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