Let’s be honest, everyone has something they’re not particularly good at. Or heck even lots of somethings!
I grew up being expected to have perfect report cards, and after that any failure was always absolutely devastating to me. If it wasn’t perfect, then I was completely and totally useless. It’s held me back for many years.
I am working on my self to get past this mentality, and am finding myself using what I am learning for me in helping the kids realize that they don’t need to be awesome at every little last thing ever to be an awesome person!
Yes, I did this self portrait. It’s awful, it’s the first one I’d done in about 12 years, and my second ever attempt at doing anything in charcoal. Yeesh!
Yep, I’ll admit it, I did the awful drawing above. I still managed an A (not the highest A.. but somehow THAT earned me an A in my drawing class….?) but I wasn’t at all pleased with it. This assignment also made me hate charcoals… I’ve gotten over that hate at least somewhat.
There are other things I’m not so great at either:
- Using oil pastels.
- Eating things with strange textures, like chunks of tomato or onion.
- Not using profanities to myself when someone drives dangerously.
- Remembering to take good care of myself.
- Folding laundry (I can do it just fine, I just hate it :P)
- Washing dishes by hand (okay I CAN do it.. but I loathe it!)
- Keeping my desk area uncluttered (I need organization lessons… hard core!)
- Not caring what other people think of me (my almost 13 year old thinks I’m cool… I should probably listen to her more than the worries in my head!)
- Eating fruits and veggies (texture issues for a lot of this… but there are some things I’ll eat!)
- Trying out new things in the kitchen (okay okay, not always.. but I’ve made some really gross mistakes! hah)
- Learning through purely verbal or written instructions. You can’t tell me “find the negative in the positive… let it flow!” and have me get it. You also can’t attempt to explain a complex math equation just out loud and have me follow… say what? You might as well have been speaking Klingon at me.
- Getting the motivation to work out every day.
- Knitting or Crochetting, I’ve never been able to wrap my brain around how to do either of these. @_@
Hmmm, is there more? Oh yes probably.. but that’s enough for now. 😛
This is a self portrait I did in a later class, in graphite thankfully! So I’ve gotten better at the self portrait thing. 😉
I see a lot of things on your list that are also on mine 😉 like folding laundry…
I’ve visiting from the UBC – best of luck for the remaining posts this month,
Rhondda
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Hello! Stopping by from UBC…I was called out of the house as soon as I posted on the FB page….my apologies for not being able to follow that rule if immediate post!
I SO get what you are saying about thinking you need to be “perfect”. In my own life, my desire to be “perfect” and “accepted” manifested in odd ways…not by the relentless pursuit of perfection, but in becoming an under achiever with a mentality of “why bother”. I am pleased to say I have worked through many of those issues! It sure does wreak havoc on one’s self esteem.
I recently listen to a GREAT audio book titled “Made By Hand-Searching for Meaning in a Throwaway World” by Mark Frauenfelder and in this book he explains the importance of making mistakes ESPECIALLY when it comes to art/crafting things. It is a very good book and quite illuminating. Maybe this can help you along your journey.
For what it’s worth, BIOTH of your self portraits are lovely!
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So with you on the knitting. The older ladies at work even stayed to give me “remedial” lessons. Still can’t knit. My mom finally hooked me up with some plastic looms and I can at least crank out hats for her pet charity…caps for chemo patients.
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