This will be the last time I ever have to say that via email. Sure, I may get a chance or two to send off a quick morning email before the plane, and I may send you a couple when there just to be cute, but in general… this is the last time I will HAVE to do so just to say good morning to you right after you wake up. It’s a funny feeling… it’s scary, it’s exhilarating, it’s wonderful, it’s terrible, but most of all it’s… closure. This chapter of our lives, this constant waiting and wondering just to get over there is finally, completely and utterly over.
We tried so hard to get me over there… it was devastating how long it took, how many set backs we had. But actually seeing you for the first time was just… so amazing. So so amazing… it wasn’t exactly leaping into each others arms so to speak, but seeing you for real, KNOWING you were real, that I could touch you, hold you, love you… it was incredible. That first trip had some awkward moments. I am not going to lie. But… when I came home, it was heart breaking to know how long it would be to get back over there again. I had left my whole heart in America. I thought it might get easier, but… nope… each time I came and went was so much harder than the last. We both almost broke the last time I left… I cried in the cab for so long… silent tears, I’m a man damn it! 😛 But in all seriousness… I couldn’t wait for this day… and when we finally got confirmation we had the visa… to say it was the greatest day of my life would be wrong, since any day without you in person with me could never be the greatest one. But it was a damn happy one.
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